hmm.. I wanted to blog the other day, but blogger died on me! HAHA. Went to Mr and Mrs Fong's house on saturday and met up with many 4/9ians. HAHA. Its been a long time since we all came together, but many was still so enthu and turned up. Thats the spirit of 4/9ians man!HAHA. Chatted with Mrs Fong and looked at their photos, she look so blissful. :)

"Hope you have a nice sleep :)"
This particular sentence triggered our laughter! LOL. But, I think Lijia have changed for the better. She no longer sleep in class! :P Woops.

After that, went to Lijia's house. LOL. She mom is damn funny, talked bad about her from the moment me and Cassie step into their house. Lijia, you should really train you mom to speak up better for you, before you bring your bf home. If not.... you really need to buy a house and stay alone! lol.

HAHA! I went to shop for the essentials for my NZ trip today with my mom. Bought many instant food. I don't know if its too exagerating. But, mom said, I'd be the one who is bringing the least. I highly doubt so. Its nearing and I'm so excited and yet worried at the same time.

Right now, I'm waiting for Cassie to come online to discuss about tmr's programme. She turned off her handphone and I suspect she is sleeping. :( Cassie please feel guilty! =x

Yupps. Life never goes as planned. I was watching Beautiful Life and this suddenly came across my mind. Its so true. No matter how I always plan things, it just doesn't go my way. What's the point of planning when you don't even know where the future lies. Just like, I keep hoping and keep thinking of going to NTU. But what if my results suddenly drop tremendously and i can't get in? (ok, this dropping badly now) So, whats the point of thinking so hard and planning? Your life has been already paved, no point trying to change it. You'll never know what's ahead. Whatever you do, just give in your best.. And you will get the best out of everything. Hmm.. Sorry, I shall contradict myself a little here. Actually, I feel that even if you give in your best, you might not get the best in the end. Because, people usually take advantage of your goodness and yups, you end up at a disadvantage. Thats the sad part of life. So, there is an extent of being a nice person. =)

Okie, enough of all my pessimistic talks. LOL. Today, qx suddenly called me and ask me to meet him. Like, I just stepped into my house then he called me. Haha. So, the lazy me, decided to stay at home. Hmm.. So, we talked for quite awhile and he suddenly told me that I'm a very gullible person. Perhaps so? He always say (ever since sec 1), I always don't listen to him and end myself up in a very stupid and lousy position and that I always picture things in the most perfect way possible thats why, always getting cheated every now and then. I really have no idea. I thought life was that beautiful.. Hmm.. I don't know. Perhaps its time for me to believe him??

Hmm.. now that Chinese New Year is around the corner. I hope that I'll have a great pig year ahead!

I somehow really like qianny's blog. Somehow, the stuff she post makes me really think over it. As in, c'mon pat, face the reality. Life is like this. Don't try to hide or fantasize in your own world. You'll end up only hurting yourself. Yupps. I really like qianny's bloggie! Qianny! Please update more often ok? You've got a loyal reader here. Here are some stuff which makes me really think.... though they are simple.. But sometimes, it just slipped your mind. Her blog serves as a very good reminder. Anyway, life isn't easy..

"When something is gone, its gone.. Even if it comes back, its no longer the same.."
This particular sentence which anyhow popped out from qianny's mind.. Make me feel very sad suddenly.. But its very true, which made me even sadder.. hai..

"Hold on to the one u love, before its too late."
I think she got this after watching "Happy Birthday".. Its true, how sad that Rene Liu didn't even get the chance to say "I Love You" before the one she love left the world. Thats why.. Never ever give yourself any chance to regret.. But its so true that friends are forever and lovers aint. So, I'd rather have friends that are forever..

Hai, I suddenly feel so old that I'm turning 19 this year. Like.. its the last year of my teenagehood. These 19 years of life is full of ups and downs.. Somehow I feel I suffered more downs than ups.. Yupps. But whatever it is, I know I have a group of very close friends who will never abandon me or leave me alone no matter what. No matter, if I'm wrong or right, they will still stand by me, giving me strength and support. I love them to the core-est of the core-est. They are friends that are forever. True friends.. They played such important role in my life that I don't know what will become of me if I lose them. They are friends whom I got closer to, after our O levels, panos. All the hotel stays, shopping, cooking session, birthday parties were so much joy to me. Without them, how dull would life be? Without them, who do i turn to in times of trouble? Will I be able to face my own problems without them? I'm so glad they came into my life. I don't know what else to type.. I'm getting very emotional here, listening to "生日快乐" makes me even more emo. I shall stop here.

Anyways, thanks Cassie for always being there with me and bearing all the complains and unhappiness I have with life. I bet you had a hard time. I'll get over it soon, especially with your help. I love you to the core-est of the core-est. I really miss those days when we contact so much that we have 5 ways of communications.

1. Talking on the phone
2. SMS
3. Email
4. MSN
5. taggies.

I really miss those days when we were so close. But, now that everyone is so busy. I'm glad, we still keep in touch, although not so often. I'm glad the Email thingie came up again. =)

Okie.. Now that exams are over.. I still feel quite sucks.. I haven't had a nice sleep ever since exams started. I just kept having dreams and dreams in my sleep.. Not that all are nightmare or whatever sort. But, dreams just make someone not being able to rest completely. Okie! I hate this feeling. I can dream of all sort of things.. Even the ASEAN cup. i dreamt that Singapore didn't actually win the cup. Like, what the hell.. this kind of dream I also can dream of. Really all sorts of weird stuff lah..

Yup! I just need a good rest.

Now I'm even tired to do anything. Like, whatever I do. I just feel so sucks. Even the sentosa outing yesterday, I didn't really enjoy myself. I just want to rest. I'm so tired.

Yay! Just one more paper and i'll be freed for a short while! And thats when I'll start get ready for CNY and after which, getting ready to fly off to New Zealand. How fast time flies.. HAHA..

Wen Qian, thanks for always being there for me! :) i love you. hehe. keep your promise ah! 24 hours! Looking forward to seeing you tomorrow, let down your curls ok? HAHA. don waste money perming it and keep tying it.. LOL.

PATRICIA
11/05/88
National University of Singapore,
Bachelor of Business Administration




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